We need more suicidal females, us men are dominating this category way too much. What happened to diversity?
Her name was Nainai (Jiyai Xin), @ificouldhaveafuturewithu and she as only 15 years old, from China. She was a fan of mass shooters such as the Columbine shooters (hence the Dylan Klebold T-shirt) and other killers. Apparently, she was inspired by Rena Palenkova and Laura Tolosa, girls who also committed suicide. She also took inspiration from Sol País, a girl who, before committing suicide, wanted to carry out a shooting at Columbine High School, just like Eric and Dylan (she was of Argentine origin).
She had some edits of murderers such as Alyssa Bustamante on her TikTok account.
The text she wrote, Nya Poka, is a reference to the aforementioned Rina Palenkova.
She had some edits of murderers such as Alyssa Bustamante on her TikTok account.
The text she wrote, Nya Poka, is a reference to the aforementioned Rina Palenkova.
Rest in peace, Xin. I don't know what happened to make you take your own life at such a young age, but I doubt anyone really understood you. I was in the same situation and no one helped me; I had to help myself.
You lost the battle, and that doesn't make you a worse person. I hope you find peace now.
Heaven should be proud; now it will have another angel.
You lost the battle, and that doesn't make you a worse person. I hope you find peace now.
Heaven should be proud; now it will have another angel.
It's so unfortunate that it had to end this way. She could have been my friend. Goth/Emo/Punk Rocker, True Crime fan, Columbiner, Asian (I don't like Asian girls just for sexual reasons, but because they are truly beautiful and funny), teenager (I still see myself as a teenager even though I'm 22), and she was so cute!!! And if she was a fan of Laura Tolosa and Sol País, that means she was open to liking Argentinians, and I could have been her Argentinian pal.
Who knows... Maybe, in an alternate reality, she and I are drinking coffee while watching a movie together, on an afternoon when the clouds and skies turned orange from the sunset... You were and always will be an angel. This damn world didn't deserve you.
Who knows... Maybe, in an alternate reality, she and I are drinking coffee while watching a movie together, on an afternoon when the clouds and skies turned orange from the sunset... You were and always will be an angel. This damn world didn't deserve you.